Taking a Walk Through the Past.....We need to know where we came from in order to appreciate where we are!

Jesus says to the woman as he did to me, "Thy sins are forgiven." First of all we all need to be forgiven are sins, but their were others in the room who knew this woman and they said her sins were many.
She did not arrive at this place accidentally or rapidly. I begin to look back at my own life and knew for certain it was not a quick descent.I grew up in a two parent home, both hard working parents. Went to good a private school, was very involved athletically and had a good rapport with my teachers and fellow classmates. We attended church regularly and I was involved in my churches youth group, very involved. I went to an Anglican church and was also involved with the choir and most of my activities center around the church.
At around 15years old,a group came to our church called the Cursillo movement and spoke about having a relationship with this man called Jesus. I remember surrendering myself to his calling in my life and vowed to follow him wherever he may lead me. There were many of us and so we began having Bible study together and we grew strong together. As time wore on, many of us grew apart and started college and marriage and work and we did not put in as much time together sharpening each other as before.
I found myself floundering and did not know where to turn. I was always the girl that everyone liked but I did not feel attractive and did not feel as if I got approval from home. As I worked I began to attract attention from the opposite sex and not having been use to this, sucked it up like a sponge. Unfortunately for me, Satan knew the weapons to use and the lies to fill my head with, and I soon fell to these lies. I had never been educated on relationships with the opposite sex and had had no experience. No one had ever told me what true love look like or even was. The only thing that had resembled it was an incident with a family member that molested me but, I had never told anyone about it because I did not know I should have told.
I fell for this man that I met at work, thinking he would give me everything I had been looking for; LOVE. I did not find it. He was nice and never mistreated me but there was something missing. I had also not been spending time with God or my scriptures.
I became pregnant. I did not know what to do. I could never tell my parents about this. I did not want to or did I, tell the father of the baby about it. I went to the doctor and he confirmed what I knew. He asked about an abortion and I said yes. I said yes because I did not want to disappoint my parents, and I did not know what else to do.
I went to the hospital and the procedure was done. I woke up in the recovery room of the hospital. The deceptions began and the lies of Satan intensified.

"For I know that in me dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me: but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do" Romans 7:18-19