Desire, Love, Intimacy - Relationship

As a wife, it has been hitting me more and more how much I love my husband. We are going into our twentieth year and I can truly say that our love has just grown more and more.

Reminder: Don't get me wrong, we are not perfect, our love did not begin in a perfect way but thanks to God,  "who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us". Thanks only to God who could take two unholy, unrighteous, needy, sinful beings and help us to be examples of his grace, his love; only to Him, our heavenly Father, be thanks given.



But, because of His work in us, our desire, love and intimacy has grown. I am not the same woman my husband met all those years ago and he is not the same, physically, emotionally etc. The first years of our marriage was so hard, we almost did not make it. We made so many mistakes and errors and we allowed pride and selfishness to rule and so we almost lost it. As a wife I tried to be a good wife but I was clueless, had no idea. I was wrestling my own demons, that I could not acknowledge or identify. My ability to love someone else was non-existent. Oh!, I thought I knew how to love but I did not.

You see, I had to come face to face with the one who is the creator of love. I cam face to face with him; after my last suicide attempt. I had been locked-up in the Rand Memorial Psych unit for my own protection. I came face to face with my Savior, my Lord. I had been given a tape player of verses by my then Pastor and one verse stood out to me in that horrify, crazy time. This verse reached out from that tape and grabbed me; "But He knows the way I take; When He has tried me, I shall come forth as gold"...I had felt that I was in a constant fire. I held on to that, that I could "come forth as gold" It was not a glamorous thought, I just did not want to live a tortured life anymore, and so I clung.

That clinging, has given gold in so many ways, it is unexplainable. My relationship with my husband is only one of those areas. Our love seems fresh and new but we have been together over 20 years. "The Mystery" Every day is new. Sometimes we can think about calling the other one and the other one calls, its crazy. We are in sync. We are not filled with as much pride anymore, we are not as selfish as we were, we seek to meet the other's needs. We allow God laws and words to define our movements, thoughts and actions. I am in awe.

This is our marriage, an earthly thing, something still imperfect but, there is something so much greater, something that allows us to experience this. The Father's Love - He desires love and intimacy with us ; a true relationship!

How deep the Father’s love for us,
How vast beyond all measure,
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure.
 

Father Unknown

 

This may not be your reality but to some little girl or boy; this is how they see their birth record listed. Father: UNKNOWN...Let that really sink in for a while. Father: UNKNOWN

Ok, thought about it? Does it disturb you? Does it make you think? Does it propel you to action?

Why? why is the father unknown. Yes, I know there can be and are some situations where there has been violence, captivity, abuse; this post is not addressing those instances. We want to look at the situations where the two people made a decision to come together in a sexual connection. A delibrate act that ended in a pregnancy, a child.

Many times, these things happen in a vortex of hormones and no thought to tomorrow, next week, next month, next year. An act that takes a few minutes of intended pleasure and has serious consequences. Another person's life. How does a child feel where they see this record? What must they think of themselves? 

In this life we have allowed our feelings to control our actions. We do what makes us feel good for the moment without ever thinking about the consequences. This is not what God intended for us. He is the example of a Father. He created us for a purpose greater than the sum total of our feelings. If we can just get to know Him, trust Him and love Him then we would not have this; 'Father: UNKNOWN"

He is our Father, Abba Father. His word says before our parents decided to commit this act He knew, before you were formed in your mother's womb He knew you, He knows the number of head on your head.  Today you may be searching for that Father. He is here! He is waiting. He says if any will open the door I will enter. Also there is nothing that can separate you from His love. 

Today, you can fill that space on your birth certificate on your heart with: Jesus

Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you. And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God